Today I am stressed... stressed about life, money, Kasey's job, going on vacation, and mostly being frustrated with just wanting to do what I love and not being able to! I'm sick of having to do a desk job to pay the bills because I'm not known enough to just do Photography. I'm also frustrated with myself for being afraid to just go for it, I'm afraid I'll end up being like one of those people on American Idol that everyone just laughs at and is in shock that the person really thinks that actually have any talent in the singing department at all, but they got that way because their entire life no one had the guts to pull them aside and say, "hey Steve, you really suck, probably should find something else to do" I'm worried the same thing will happen with my photography, everyone I know has just been to loving to tell me how horrible I really am, because if I really was good then wouldn't I be at least kind of well known by now?! Maybe its because I hide myself I don't know... either way, something has to change and FAST I'm going crazy, all I do is sit around every day thinking about how badly I just want to be out taking pictures while instead I'm stuck behind my 4x8 cubical prison! I've got an artist in me and its betting for me to let it out... unfortunately my mortgage doesn't care about my creative side or what I want, it just wants to be paid :(
Uhh...you don't suck at photography, at all!!! Hopefully sometime soon you can make it your full time job. :) And I hear ya about the money and job thing...so frustrating.
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