A little trip

Ok so i'm going to blog about our summer trip in full force a little later this week but I wanted to just share a little bit of our week! Kasey and I spent the majority of the week in Portland/Vancouver area and it was amazing!!! I love it there and I can't wait until we move there in a few years! the weather was perfect, the beach was perfect {well a little windy} and everything about it was just perfect :) here are a few pictures from the trip! 

One Year!

Holy Smokes! Can you believe that when I wake up in the morning I'll have been married for ONE YEAR! Its so crazy to think of it, it feels like just last week I was planning and trying to get things done for the wedding and at the same time it feels like Kasey and I have always been together. We have grown so much over the past year, both individually and together. I am so in love with him and that love gets stronger every day. Of course we have our arguments but who doesn't?! But we always make up and sometimes we both have to bend a little but that's what makes it work so well! We have never gone to bed in a fight and I hope we never do! I'm so excited to spend the rest of my life with him and raise a family together one day. He is going to be such an amazing dad! Thank you babe for being there for me always and for loving and supporting me for being me, you're the best I could have asked for!!! 

I never really did a post with our wedding pictures so here are just a few. I'll try and do another post tomorrow {after I shoot my dear friend Emilys wedding, YEP we are going to SHARE an anniversary!} 

I love this picture so much! 

Our cake was SO yummy! 

Our rings on the seat of my grandpa's Model T 

I hope Kasey makes me smile like this until the day I die! {so far so good!} 

This is one of my favorite pictures from the entire day!

Our cute little fans I made for the guest to have during the ceremony to stay cool!

I love this picture more than words can say! Kasey's dad, him, his best friend and his uncle, I know how much this picture means to Kasey and it makes me happy when I look at it! I'm so glad that Mike was able to come!

Nightmare

Last night I had a nightmare.. like a real one. It woke me up in the middle of the night in tears and had me reaching for Kasey to make sure he was still there. I hate having bad dreams! They sit on my mind all the next day and I try to analyze why I had it or what meaning it could of had, or if I was supposed to learn something from it. I wish I could just brush it off as 'just a bad dream' and move on with life, but I probably wont.

On a lighter note however I found a bunch of my mix cd's from high school and I've been listening to them all morning at work and its lightened my mood considerably! 

Journal...

I originally thought that I would use my blog as a journal, a way to capture my life happening {which I've kind of done} but the thing I can't do is post some of the things going through my head. I don't think even if I had a real journal I'd be able to. I have things in there that I can't get out and I feel like I need to tell someone but I don't want a single soul to know, and even if someone did know it would do me no good so whats the point? I guess I need to figure out how to stop thoughts before I can focus on them. I'm really good at focusing on things and I need to change that! Well I need to learn to only focus on things that will make me better. I honestly believe that everything happens for a reason but its hard understand why sometimes.