9-11-11

I woke up on Sunday to the sound of trumpets playing at the near by armory, It was a peaceful yet saddened  reminder of what that day now stands for. 

10 years ago I woke up and went to the bathroom to get ready for school. Even though I was only a sophomore when I turned on my radio and heard that a plane had just crashed into the WTC, I knew what that meant. I stood in shock listening and the more they spoke the less I believed. When I realized it was real, I fell to the floor and cried. I forced myself to get out the door and had the radio on in the car, I remember my friend trying to change the station saying "why do I care whats happening in NY" and I remember telling her this was going to effect more then just the city of NY! 

As I sat on the cold hardwood floor in my dance class we all watched in horror as we witnessed people jumping from the buildings, then the first tower fell, there was a girl sitting next to me and I don't remember her name but I remember she had really curly hair and she yelled out and then broke down sobbing. I don't think there was one person in the room that didn't have tears streaming down their face and I'll never forget when the second tower came down the chaos of trying to figure out if they were replaying the first tower falling or if the second tower really had just crumbled. The day seemed to move in slow motion and a few hours later I just couldn't take it anymore. I left school early, and drove home in the rain. I curled up on the couch and cried the rest of the afternoon as I watched the news. 

Some of us were to young to grasp the reality, some of us just not mature enough to realize the importance. 

I spent most of my Sunday morning watching the live events in NY and as the names were read of the loved ones lost, again I sat and cried. For each of us its a different memory, but it has changed all of our lives forever! 

It is amazing to see strangers comforting strangers, and I am proud every day of my life to be able to call my self an American. 

To all the lives taken to soon that day, and the men and woman who have lost their lives serving our country may God be with you till we meet again. 

My Best Friends Wedding

Tomorrow is going to be an awesome day! I'm hoping for great weather {not to hot and no rain} because tomorrow my best friend is getting married! I am so happy for her I can't even begin to explain it! 

Her and Eric have been dating for a few years and its about time they tie the knot! 

Annie and I met back in 7th grade and after I invited myself to lunch the first day of school we became insta-friends! We've been through so much together and I'm glad to have her in my life! I hope you have the most amazing day tomorrow Annie and I can't wait to see you as a married woman, you are going to make a wonderful wife!! Congratulations! 

The Doctor...

If you follow my blog or know me in real life then you know that for the last 3 1/2 years I've been trying to fight fatigue, not just being sleepy but full on can't function some days because I'm so tired my limbs are being pulled to the ground by gravity can't keep my eyes open fatigue! I've been to the dr a few times and the first time it was "maybe you should become more granola and go hiking more but in the mean time take these pills for weight loss " um... ok?! I did and they gave me TONS of energy but after a few months he said they weren't working anymore so he took me off them.. they seemed to be working to me but what do I know right? He also drew some blood and had a few things tested things were fine so he sent me on my way. Fast forward a couple years and I went back last October and had more blood drawn but nothing ever came of that either. Yesterday I finally sucked it up and went back to the doctor, this time a NEW doctor! Going to the dr gives me more anxiety than anything else in the world! I get sweaty palms and feel sick, my blood pressure goes through the roof and I just want to die! I feel like I'm a crazy person going in for a fake illness because they never find anything! I went in mostly for my annual check up and brought up the fatigue while I was there. I am REALLY hoping for an answer this time around! He explained to me that while yes my thyroid was 'ok' last time i was checked it had dropped a VERY large amount from the first time it was checked, and that there might be a few other minor things going on causing the problems I'm having. So 5 viles of blood and a urine sample later I'm going to patiently wait until next Wednesday until I go back for my follow up visit to find out what they find! I don't remember everything they said they were going to test for but some them are:

white and red blood cell count

thyroid {again} 

all my hormone levels 

my tryglistrides 

and a bunch of other things, I think the girl actually drawing my blood listed off about 25 things! They have to find something right?! I'll know for sure by next week, and hopefully its nothing major!   

5 things

Right now in my life there are 5 things that I want {not right this second but for my life in general} in absolutely NO order at all they are 

1. To live in Oregon

2. To be sealed 

3. A family {with human kids as well as our dog} 

4. To be a full time successful wedding/landscape photographer

5. To be skinny and have long hair

I know with a LOT of hard work all 5 of these things will happen, I don't know what the time line is but I know that if I just keep working at them, they'll happen!