One Year!

Holy Smokes! Can you believe that when I wake up in the morning I'll have been married for ONE YEAR! Its so crazy to think of it, it feels like just last week I was planning and trying to get things done for the wedding and at the same time it feels like Kasey and I have always been together. We have grown so much over the past year, both individually and together. I am so in love with him and that love gets stronger every day. Of course we have our arguments but who doesn't?! But we always make up and sometimes we both have to bend a little but that's what makes it work so well! We have never gone to bed in a fight and I hope we never do! I'm so excited to spend the rest of my life with him and raise a family together one day. He is going to be such an amazing dad! Thank you babe for being there for me always and for loving and supporting me for being me, you're the best I could have asked for!!! 

I never really did a post with our wedding pictures so here are just a few. I'll try and do another post tomorrow {after I shoot my dear friend Emilys wedding, YEP we are going to SHARE an anniversary!} 

I love this picture so much! 

Our cake was SO yummy! 

Our rings on the seat of my grandpa's Model T 

I hope Kasey makes me smile like this until the day I die! {so far so good!} 

This is one of my favorite pictures from the entire day!

Our cute little fans I made for the guest to have during the ceremony to stay cool!

I love this picture more than words can say! Kasey's dad, him, his best friend and his uncle, I know how much this picture means to Kasey and it makes me happy when I look at it! I'm so glad that Mike was able to come!

Nightmare

Last night I had a nightmare.. like a real one. It woke me up in the middle of the night in tears and had me reaching for Kasey to make sure he was still there. I hate having bad dreams! They sit on my mind all the next day and I try to analyze why I had it or what meaning it could of had, or if I was supposed to learn something from it. I wish I could just brush it off as 'just a bad dream' and move on with life, but I probably wont.

On a lighter note however I found a bunch of my mix cd's from high school and I've been listening to them all morning at work and its lightened my mood considerably! 

Journal...

I originally thought that I would use my blog as a journal, a way to capture my life happening {which I've kind of done} but the thing I can't do is post some of the things going through my head. I don't think even if I had a real journal I'd be able to. I have things in there that I can't get out and I feel like I need to tell someone but I don't want a single soul to know, and even if someone did know it would do me no good so whats the point? I guess I need to figure out how to stop thoughts before I can focus on them. I'm really good at focusing on things and I need to change that! Well I need to learn to only focus on things that will make me better. I honestly believe that everything happens for a reason but its hard understand why sometimes. 

I need a day off....

I've been sitting here going back from my screen to the stacks of papers on my desk to thinking about photo shoots and back to emails then paperwork and so on... I've got 3 projects I'm working on, plus my daily work, 3 photo shoots to edit a shoot tonight and 2 more this weekend and all that I can think about is going out side and taking a nap in grass with the sun shining on me. I'm frustrated with where I am in life and where I want to be. My desktop background is a picture of Kasey and I on our wedding day and I catch myself staring at it a lot wishing I could just spend my entire day with him every day. I saw him this morning and I still miss him. I'm not sure how I lasted while he was in Iraq... I went 7 months with out anything but super crappy skype calls! I want to spend everyday sleeping in with my puppy and then taking pictures until I'm blue in the face then coming home to snuggle up with Kasey on the couch and watch stupid tv shows. I think was I really need is just a few days off from work. Time to spend in my yard and cleaning my house and having dinner ready by 5. I'm counting down the days until we go on summer vacation, I can't wait to be in Oregon & Washington just hanging out and maybe looking for our dream house! I guess I'll just have to settle for it almost being the weekend!